nuns on the run

This is my favorite thing.

What Came to Me- Jane Kenyon

I took the last dusty piece of china out of the barrel. It was your gravy boat, with a hard, brown drop of gravy still on the porcelain lip. I grieved for you then as I never had before.

The Shirt

by Jane Kenyon

The shirt touches his neck
and smooths over his back.
It slides down his sides.
It even goes down below his belt—
down into his pants.
Lucky shirt.

The littlest birds sing the prettiest songs

I am getting a massage today, and I really could use one. Things are getting easier, and harder at the same time. Work is pretty overwhelming, but it's hard to care too much. Other things are out of my control, but I spend way too much time fretting about them. Plus, I am spending way too much money lately, but I got the cutest shoes! I am going to get a korean body scrub and moisture thingie this weekend!

Let Evening Come by Jane Kenyon

Let the light of late afternoon
shine through chinks in the barn, moving
up the bales as the sun moves down.

Let the cricket take up chafing
as a woman takes up her needles
and her yarn. Let evening come.

Let dew collect on the hoe abandoned
in long grass. Let the stars appear
and the moon disclose her silver horn.

Let the fox go back to its sandy den.
Let the wind die down. Let the shed
go black inside. Let evening come.

To the bottle in the ditch, to the scoop
in the oats, to air in the lung
let evening come.

Let it come, as it will, and don't
be afraid. God does not leave us
comfortless, so let evening come.

"The Art of Disappearing" by Naomi Shihab Nye from Words Under the Words: Selected Poems.

The Art of Disappearing

When they say Don't I know you?
say no.

When they invite you to the party
remember what parties are like
before answering.
Someone telling you in a loud voice
they once wrote a poem.
Greasy sausage balls on a paper plate.
Then reply.

If they say We should get together
say why?

It's not that you don't love them anymore.
You're trying to remember something
too important to forget.
Trees. The monastery bell at twilight.
Tell them you have a new project.
It will never be finished.

When someone recognizes you in a grocery store
nod briefly and become a cabbage.
When someone you haven't seen in ten years
appears at the door,
don't start singing him all your new songs.
You will never catch up.

Walk around feeling like a leaf.
Know you could tumble any second.
Then decide what to do with your time.

today

I'm back at work. Physically, that is. My mind is having a harder time. Everyone seems so much more focused than I am. I guess that's not a surprise. I was really looking forward to getting back into the swing, but it's a little more difficult than I thought it would be be.

mama

She's gone. I don't know what to do.

my mom

She is so sick. Please let her get better.

Movie Soundtrack

Opening credits- Always On My Mind- Iron and Wine
Waking up- Lonesome Valley- Magnolia Electric Company
First day of school- Undone (The Sweater Song)- Weezer
Falling in love- The Gambler- Kenny Loggins
Fight song- I Need Some Fine Wine and You, You Need to be Nicer- The Cardigans
Breaking up-What Can I Say- Brandi Carlile
Prom – Jump In the River- Sinead O’Connor
Life- Does This Bus Stop at 82nd Street?- Bruce Springsteen
Mental breakdown- Cotton- The Mountain Goats
Driving- The Fox in the Snow- Belle and Sebastian
Flashback- Lazy- David Byrne
Wedding- Song for the Fireflies- Josh Ritter
Birth of child- Curtain Calls- Old 97s
Final battle- The Bachelor and the Bride- The Decemberists
Death scene- The Last Thing I Needed First Thing This Morning- Willie Nelson
Funeral song- California- Rufus Wainwright
End credit- New York State of Mind- Billy Joel

Today

Watched "Little Miss Sunshine" with mom. I cried, that movie is so funny. It was a hard morning, but laughing makes it better. Now I'm at work, and should be working more than I am. Lots to do, not much time to do it. We're moving the office soon. That sounds like a big task, but I'm up for it. It will good to start fresh.

They both like the wind in their hair.

Mama

 

This is hard

This is just really, really hard. I am so very helpless. I can't believe that this is happening at all, mus less to someone I love so much. She would do this for me. She would do more than this for me. I just want her to feel better, and to get better,and not to be sick anymore. Nobody should ever be this sick.

 

answer the following questions using only two words.

1. when was the last time you shaved?
long ago

2. explain what ended your last relationship.
what relationship?

3. what were you doing this morning at 8 a.m.?
visiting mom

4. what were you doing 15 minutes ago?
questioning client

5. are you any good at math?
uh no

6. your prom night?
didn't go

7. do you have any famous ancestors?
yes. lots.

8. have you had to take a loan out for school?
big ones

9. do you know the words to the song on your myspace profile?
mostly do

10. last thing received in the mail?
bills bills

11. how many different beverages have you had today?
coke coffee

12. do you ever leave messages on people's answering machine?
yes sometimes

13. who did you lose your CONCERT virginity to?
violent femmes

14. do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
there's rocks

15. what's the most painful dental procedure you've had?
wisdom teeth

16. what is out your back door?
old porch

17. any plans for friday night?
tiffany beers

18. do you like what the ocean does to your hair?
yucky frizz

19. have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different popcorns?
parents gross

20. have you ever been to a planetarium?
nope. never.

21. do you re-use towels after you shower?
of course

22. some things you are excited about?
dogs sleep

23. what is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
red sugar

24. describe your keychain(s)?
broken now

25. where do you keep your change?
ikea jar

26. when was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people?
court spring

27. what kind of winter coat do you own?
several, why?

28. what was the weather like on your graduation day?
scorching sunny

29. do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed?
closed tight

Good grief!

More snow. Dogs going crazy because they love snow. I can't decide whether or not to even chance it with the roads. I don't work too far away, but my commute does involve ascending and descending several very long and steep hills. There's really no way to avoid them. Better have some coffee and think about it more.

We always have a good time.

No. 1

Um. So this is strange.


I guess I'm just like everyone else now. Maybe I will get a book deal. Should happen any minute now.